This July it will be 3 years since I moved to Germany. I.e. one year over the time frame that was generally communicated to friends and family when I was moving. It was meant to be a time frame and not a deadline.
After a whole year (2009-2010) of feeling wasted in a team that once considered me valuable, I finally managed to find another place for myself within in October 2010. I once again like my job, I am around motivated and driven people, so on the work front, things are looking good. I also am doing a kind of job that I could not have gotten to do (so easily) if I were in India. I like the change.
On another front though, there is increasing pressure I feel that being in Germany and liking it, is causing a lot of trouble and discomfort to people in my life - people who mean a lot to me. This is constantly playing on my conscience. One part of me tells me, I deserve to have a life of my own...and another part of me tells me, I should be considerate towards these people - not think about myself.
3 years helped establish deep relationships with friends here. However, there is a constant question mark and reality that hangs above these relationships. Seems like it gets in the way of taking such relationships to next levels. Friends here are not sure just how long we will be around and how much should they bank on us\invest in this relationship with us.
So, 3 years hence, the uncertainty of living in Germany with an open end date is becoming a problem for too many people around me. Humm...I do not know any answers, nor are there any definite plans...
I read an interesting line.
When the winds of change begin to blow, some people choose to build walls, others choose to build windmills.
I wonder what direction I am headed towards...for now, I recognize the wind is starting to blow...I'll go with the flow until there's some firm hold.
After a whole year (2009-2010) of feeling wasted in a team that once considered me valuable, I finally managed to find another place for myself within in October 2010. I once again like my job, I am around motivated and driven people, so on the work front, things are looking good. I also am doing a kind of job that I could not have gotten to do (so easily) if I were in India. I like the change.
On another front though, there is increasing pressure I feel that being in Germany and liking it, is causing a lot of trouble and discomfort to people in my life - people who mean a lot to me. This is constantly playing on my conscience. One part of me tells me, I deserve to have a life of my own...and another part of me tells me, I should be considerate towards these people - not think about myself.
3 years helped establish deep relationships with friends here. However, there is a constant question mark and reality that hangs above these relationships. Seems like it gets in the way of taking such relationships to next levels. Friends here are not sure just how long we will be around and how much should they bank on us\invest in this relationship with us.
So, 3 years hence, the uncertainty of living in Germany with an open end date is becoming a problem for too many people around me. Humm...I do not know any answers, nor are there any definite plans...
I read an interesting line.
When the winds of change begin to blow, some people choose to build walls, others choose to build windmills.
I wonder what direction I am headed towards...for now, I recognize the wind is starting to blow...I'll go with the flow until there's some firm hold.
